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Rachie

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Been really low th last few days. And i cant really put my finger on why exactly. The pregnancy last 2 weeks has been harder than ever before. Even tho im well into the second trimester it should be where i 'bloom' and have energy and all that jazz. Well it aint happening as of yet :ph34r: I just feel like crying, i feel huge and ugly and i keep getting bladder infections one after the other.. And its only gonna get worse. I feel sceard too. My mum scares me alot, altho i know she dosnt mean to at all.... i dont think she relises what shes doing. When i talk about the labour she seems to bring up a tradigy that happened to her in the 60s. She was ignored and the docs thought she was 'off her head' when she went into labour and she gave birth on her own 3 months premeture. The baby died. She is obviously still upset and angery (she never got an appoligy from the hospital) and starts crying and stuff. She also lost a baby (Brian) that at 6 months old died of cot death on holloween.

Dont know if i menchened it in this blog but a while ago my sister got the fertilised eggs implanted and she had a waiting time of 2 weeks to find out if she was pregnant. Well she isnt. I still havent seen her (her choice) but she sent some 'pregnant' magazines around. My mum says she coping well.

Im actually crying when i write this. Sopose its good to get it all out eh? When darren asks whats wrong i never even have a good answer. i seem to be biteing his head of recently and i really really dont mean to - im sceard he'll 'have enough' and go back to glasgow (deep down i dont think he will - but life does have a habbit of being cruel dosnt it??)

*has stopped cryingg now* - bloody hell... do feel better now after a good sob.

I keep having horrid nightmares as well. Really horrid.

In other news nothing much at all. Oh, I have a brilliant idea for a buisness plan, but i cant be arsed talking about that now, maybe when i feel alittle better.

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It's your hormones sweetie, loads of changes are happening to your body, and it's having to adjust. Hope they settle down again soon for you.

Hospitals are loads better these days, make sure you're in a good one, you and your baby will be fine. Ask your mum to tell you her good stories, of successful births, like you. :)

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