Ok so i'm currently trying to pass my 2nd year of uni

Its not going very well

Doesn't help that i'm working pretty muhc every night this week, i'm knackereed and my insomnia is getting worse each night.

I spent monday miserable as hell, drinking myself into a pitiful slumber.

I want to look forward to leeds, and be all excited but right now i just can't. Not till i gte this stpid work done. Which means getting up early tomorrow even though i wont get back from work till about 4am.

I'm not amazingly happy right now, and i'm scared that if i feel this way at leeds there will be NO-ONE to look out for me and ensure i don't do anything stupid (trust me, pissed+depressed beki is not a good combination)

In other news, why are men so crap? Why can't they be honest and straightforward. Why can't he just stop messing me around and tell me where i f**king stand?

So yeah, i'll go back to wallowing in self pity.

beki x