There’s an element of that for me, but it’s also (for me) more than a festival. It’s an annual meeting of very long term friends who I rarely, if ever get to see anywhere else. As we all arrive days or weeks before and stay after, there’s a real “family feel” about it and we can properly catch up.
So split on whether I want them to be headlining. Would be pleased for them as a huge fan (and they 100% deserve it), but having failed to get tickets not being there to see it myself would be brutal.
It’s like I’m doing it because that’s what I do! I said this would be my last in 2025 , but maybe it’s over already!
I got divorced a few years ago, and it’s a very similar feeling, missing what once was and the grieving is because it actually no longer exists!